i want

a job.
and a fun filled end of my summer.
at least i have the last one :)

i want

a guy like ed to find me.
ready go!

anyone out there?

i'm gone for four days... no missed calls. no voicemails. one text in reply to one i sent right before i turned my phone off four days ago. no messages/comments/etc on facebook or myspace. am i the only one trying to spread the love out there? i mean shit! i just want to be held and rocked to sleep right now. i need some chill pills.

Canada

I can't wait to see my family.
I feel so open and happy with them. Rafting is some of the best times in my ENTIRE YEAR.
And baby Sam makes my life. I'm never sad or upset when he's around. He gives me hope for the future. His and mine.

I can't wait to SCREEEEEAM on the scary rapids :)) Whhheee.

Study Abroad

I am going to study abroad in college. It's going to happen.
Sadly, the falls only offers Spain, Britain, Japan, and Australia. But that is according to the faulty, horribly made website.

At Central they have tons and tons of different programs, but none are quarter long (only semester or year) except for the faculty lead ones. Ecck.
But there is a faculty lead trip to Spain for fifteen days for specifically communication/journalist majors, which would be perfect.

But most of all I want to go to France. I just have to go. Italy too, but I feel like thats for my mom and I. I just have to go to France. With three years of it under my belt and possibly another year in college, it'd be way easier for me to pick up than any other language. Plus, its my dream to go there. To go to Nice and Paris would make my life.

That's one thing I'm looking forward to when school starts... being able to talk to my counselors about studying abroad, because all the offices are closed in the summer. It's such an exciting thought to be out on my own with no one I know in one of the most beautiful countries on earth. Uggh I'm just drooling thinking about it.

:)

My daddy told me he was happy today.
That made my week.

my least favorite letter of the alphabet

i'm still hurt.
i didn't know i could have such strong feelings for someone i'm not dating.

you're perfect! with only one flaw -- her.

Hey

I want to love everyone.
Alot.
I'm gonna work on that :)

DAMN

i should've asked sooner.
then i wouldn't have been lead on so much.

fukk. and now im shaking. in the bad way.

Shucks

No one can go rafting :((
First year alone. This sucks. Balls.

Oh well, I have an eventful two months ahead of me, no need to be upset :p

Yes

I'm starting to get the spark of energy and life back.
I'm gonna trap it and keep it with me haha.