Hi, My Name is Lindsey

Banana squash, plums and lentils

2012-01-17T20:21:00.000-08:00

Lindsey Treffry | rawr

With the weather dropping below 50 degrees, University of Idaho students and the Moscow community are preparing for winter — with fruits and vegetables.
The UI Cooking Basics classes are funded through Student Health and co-sponsored by Verna Bergmann, the campus dietitian, and the Wellness Program. The classes, hosted by Bergmann, feature a guest chef or instructor, and are held once a month at the Student Recreation Center.
“Generally, the focus is how to start where you’re at with what cooking equipment and facility you have,” Bergmann said.
The Oct. 13 cooking class, featuring Sandy McCurdy, an extension food safety specialist, focused on canning and drying fruits and vegetables. McCurdy, with the assistance of students enrolled in UI nutrition and science courses, prepared a lesson on how to can salsa, dry fruit leather and apple rings, and how to make dried “apple pie.”
“Students might end up with some extra apples,” McCurdy said. “You may think, ‘These would be great if I preserved them and dry them into a snack later.’”
Class attendees included a small handful of Moscow community members and UI students. The assistants helped slice and dice fresh produce that was then made into salsa and canned using a water-bath method, where glass jars are placed into an oversize kettle, that provides at least a 1 1/2 inch space of water over the jar top.
Other attendees helped slice apples into rings to dry in a dehydrator, while an assistant smoothed commercial applesauce over a tray to be dehydrated too.
Kenna Gardes, UI senior nutrition major, had never attended a Cooking Basics class before, but said she learned a lot.
“My mom just got a dehydrator so now I have some ideas,” Gardes said.
Gardes said she plans on trying the apple pie recipe on her own, and if successful, she will try to make other flavors.
“I really like cooking,” Gardes said. “I like to find new ways to make food, preserve food and new techniques.”
Samples of the recipes were set to the side of the room, surrounded by seasonal vegetables and fruit, to taste at the end of the class. Two boxes of fresh produce were also available for attendees to take home, donated by the Soil Stewards, a UI club for organic farming and sustainable community food systems.
“The effort (of leading the classes) is to talk to and teach students how to use what they’ve got and what’s seasonal — the most tasty, nutritious meals on a budget,” Bergmann said.
According to McCurdy, canning equipment is generally inexpensive, but dehydrators can be more than $100. McCurdy said dehydration can be done in the oven at home, with the door propped open, as long as the oven can reach low temperatures of 145 to 155 degrees Fahrenheit.
Bergmann said students should attend classes to enjoy, learn and get to know food in a personal way.
“It’s really empowering to students,” Bergmann said. “Students have said they had no idea they could make their own food and be creative. It’s all about wanting to take care of yourself, to eat better and with less cost.”
The next Cooking Basics class is from 4 to 5 p.m. Nov. 17 in the SRC classroom. Monir Desouky from UI campus dining will be the guest host for “Bake Your Own Bread.”
To see a full list of classes throughout the year, visit www.uidaho.edu/studentaffairs/studenthealthcenter/campusdietitian.

As seen in the Oct. 21 issue of rawr.

Paper

2011-03-01T23:33:00.000-08:00

Fuck you all for using my life as a waste of time trash can for all your dirty thoughts, emotions, and opinions. Do I look like I give a shit? I'm editor-in-chief of a paper, not your fucking therapist. You can't force me into doing things. You can't force me into training people. Fix your own problems and stop messing with MY LIFE.

end scene

What If

2011-01-19T13:55:00.000-08:00

Ingrid can say it all so well. I am giving up on the "What if?"

"What if we stop having a ball?
What if the paint chips from the wall?
What if there's always cups in the sink?
What if I'm not what you think I am?

What if I fall further than you?
What if you dream of somebody new?
What if I never let you win, chase you with a rolling pin?
Well what if I do?

I am giving up on making passes and
I am giving up on half empty glassess and
I am giving up on greener grasses.
I am giving up.

What if our baby comes home after nine?
What it your eyes close before mine?
What if you lose yourself sometimes? Then I'll be the one to find you
Safe in my heart.

I am giving up on making passes and
I am giving up on half empty glassess and
I am giving up on greener grasses.
I am giving up.

I am giving up.
I am giving up.
I am giving up on greener grasses.

I am giving up for you.
I am giving up for you.
I am giving up."

SHIT

2011-01-13T21:49:00.000-08:00

It kicks so hard, it breaks your bones
It cuts so deep, it hits your soul
Tears your skin, and makes your blood flow
It's better that we know that love is hard

What will I do without you here Daddy? I feel like sometimes I need you more than you need me.

+

2010-08-31T00:02:00.000-07:00

i'm restless, and i'm in love.

HAH

2010-08-12T00:44:00.000-07:00

Its all gotta happen at once, doesn't it?
Always.

ASLKFJSDOV*&$U#OKLFSDLKFNLSDKF#I$HEJKRnf!!

stuff

2010-07-08T01:01:00.000-07:00

the more i get older, i realize there are less people that really 'get me'.

i'm past the awkward stages of my life, i have myself all figured out (for the most part), and now some people don't take me as who I AM.

thank god for the few in my life that do. i really understand what love is when i have the friends, family, and boyfriend who have stuck around through all the different stages of ME.

adult life

2010-06-29T23:11:00.000-07:00

i feel like i'm really growing up.
and doing some of the most challenging things i've ever done.

i want to go to neverland.
and sometimes i think wendy should have stayed with peter.

QUICK

2010-06-24T00:02:00.000-07:00

what am i always rushing to?
what am i doing when i think the future is going to be better? there is no future! not for sure anyways.

who knows

2010-05-17T00:17:00.000-07:00

hello feeling,

it's been a while.
i think i remember you.

you hurt a lot once.

but not this time.

love, the insignificant late-night thoughts of lindsey.

home

2010-04-25T22:40:00.001-07:00

my dad told me and my brother he wished he could have spent more time taking care of us, before we had to take care of him.

that's all i've wanted.
i don't think i'll ask for anything ever again.

ya

2010-04-25T22:17:00.001-07:00

People who have only good experiences aren’t very interesting. They may be content, and happy after a fashion, but they aren’t very deep. It may seem a misfortune now, and it makes things difficult, but well—it’s easy to feel all the happy, simple stuff. Not that happiness is necessarily simple. But I don’t think you’re going to have a life like that, and I think you’ll be the better for it. The difficult thing is to not be overwhelmed by the bad patches. You must not let them defeat you. You must see them as a gift—a cruel gift, but a gift nonetheless.

...

2010-02-27T19:30:00.000-08:00

i looove it in phoenix. i am having an amazing time. but since that conversation (as of what an hour ago??)...

i wish i could come talk to you for like 2-3 hours. and have you fix everything i've been hating and regretting since... him. and get it off my chest.

guess i'll wait til i see you then.

i like

2010-02-20T21:02:00.000-08:00

why, thank you

2010-02-18T16:16:00.000-08:00

i wont let you down.

hah thank the lord!!

REALLY

2010-02-11T21:45:00.000-08:00

i really, really, really, really, really want this. PLEASE.

just sometimes

2010-02-03T15:40:00.001-08:00

i have been so unbelievably happy in the past few weeks. happier than i've been since summer. bouncing off the walls happy. but some mornings i wake up and i get... that feeling again. that dread. and victimization. and severe sadness. and the only thing i want is to either shove all thoughts of my father out of my head or go see him, curl up in his arms, and cry.

i try so hard not to take anything for granted and i know i'm blessed. but some days i just need to... not. i need to not be happy. i need to just stop hiding those thoughts that are always jumping around in my head. i need to find a balance where i can not ignore what's going on with my dad, accept it, and still be happy with the idea of it. that's a huge challenge. but i can try.

my horoscope said...
"The energy around you may be slowing down a bit, and that's okay!" and i do think it's alright. i can't be happy 24/7 in my life. i need a balance. a way to feel, and not shut things out, and let things in.

and on a lighter note, it also said... "Friends can turn into more-than-friends, and encounters can turn hot on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Go on, look and feel terrific -- and be terrifically appealing, whether you're single or coupled up." i like this idea :))

stuck in my head

2010-01-31T21:27:00.001-08:00

...and for good reasons.

Hey, hey

Your lipstick stains on the front lobe of my left side brains
I knew I wouldn't forget you, and so I went and let you blow my mind
Your sweet moonbeam, the smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided, you're the one I have decided who's one of my kind

Hey soul sister, ain't the Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight
Hey, hey

Just in time, I'm so glad you have a one-track mind like me
You gave my life direction, a game show love connection we can't deny
I'm so obsessed, my heart is bound to beat right out my untrimmed chest
I believe in you, like a virgin, you're Madonna, and I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight

The way you can't cut a rug, watching you's the only drug I need
You're so gangsta, I'm so thug, you're the only one I'm dreaming of
You see, I can be myself now finally, in fact there's nothing I can't be
I want the world to see you be with me

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do tonight,
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight
Hey, hey

Tonight
Hey, hey

Tonight

madison!!

2010-01-27T17:03:00.000-08:00

so every freaking time i put something on here... its going to notify you? so i can't talk about you behind your back!?

...shelly this is a dilemma!

InDesign

2010-01-26T15:58:00.000-08:00

oh how i missed thee.

shhh

2010-01-17T10:15:00.001-08:00

it's a secret
teehee

oh wait

2010-01-10T20:17:00.001-08:00

other people feel pain too?
like your best friends?

and someone you've known for years but have never talked to?
WEIRD lindsey.

victim

2009-12-30T23:40:00.000-08:00

its so easy to forget how many other people are hurting too; in the entire world.
i have some tough, stupid shit going on. but there is waaay worse.
i'm tired of being the victim, so i'm going to stop believing that i am one.
karma's a sacred bitch, it'll all come around.

lady antebellum

2009-12-27T21:37:00.000-08:00

"My friends think I'm moving on,
but the truth is I'm not that strong and nobody knows it but me.
I've kept all the words you said,
in a box underneath my bed,
and nobody knows it but me...

You should have been chasing me,
You should have been trying to prove,
that I was all that mattered to you,
Oh, I should have said all the things,
that I kept inside of me and maybe,
You could have made me believe,
that what we had boy,
Oh, that what we had
What we had
It was all we're ever need."

NOPE

2009-12-16T20:45:00.000-08:00

or not.

you deserve better. you deserve better. you deserve better. he should want to drop everything he's doing and make the smallest sacrifice to come see you when your dad is in the hospital instead of partying with friends for over a week, ignoring your texts.

you deserve better.
you deserve to be with someone like your brother and your daddy.
YOU DESERVE BETTER.
listen to yourself lindsey! lissssten.

please

2009-12-07T19:50:00.000-08:00

i was so unsure before.

and now i'm so sure. sooo sure. i want to be with you RIGHT NOW.

silly

2009-12-06T16:53:00.000-08:00

CONFUSED.
that's all i can feel. i know we want each other. i know you have to be in my life. my feelings are growing the longer we're apart. is that good? i want you to hold me and make me feel better, but you're the problem! i'm the problem! is it even a problem? is there even a solution? what's gonna happen! i'm scared. you're scared. you miss me. i miss you... more.

my heart is already broken from the most important man in my life. and i don't want it to be hurt by another.

where's my answer book?

jason and paris

2009-12-01T16:21:00.001-08:00

jason mraz puts paris into the most perfect words. uggh i want to go there so bad. jason would be a good addition too...

"Paris is a perfumed city, bedazzled in lights, leather and legs. It is a city that inspires poetry, romance and leave-in conditioner. This is the one city where I’m neither bothered by cigarette smokers nor stinky cheese. Being here makes me want a chateau to claim as my castle. Being here makes me want to sleep in an expensive suit while I dream in black in white. Yet while the city consumes my imagination, I am content in the corner, a tourist observing the colorful world in a state of perpetual newness. Even in the busiest of places, I find solace as if the city were sound proof, the babble of voices being the drone of raw emotion, nothing more. My understanding of the language is so minimal that comparing it to a call of wild animals is the best I can do to apply any meaning to it. Therefore, everything I hear is magical, like ears listening to ballet. The whir of le scooter, the ding of the vino, the clop of the boots and unzipping of jackets supply the musical accompaniment to all of it including my clinking miniature spoonfuls of sugar into my annual espresso."

ugh here sorry

2009-11-29T22:56:00.001-08:00

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2009-11-26T21:36:00.001-08:00

first time i've heard this song

2009-11-15T21:19:00.001-08:00

40 Dogs (Romeo and Juliet) by Bob Schneider
WhoTF is Bob Schneider? Idk but this song is wonderful :)

Well if I spell it out, if I get it out,
Will you hear me when I tell you about
What I have to say, before it gets too late?
It's not as easy as I said it'd be,
But there’s something right about you and me,
Something right about you and me.

Well you’re the color of a book,
You’re the color of a sideways look from an undercover cop,
You’re the color of the book.
You’re the color of a storm in June,
You're the color of the moon.
You’re the color of the night, that’s right,
Color of a fight - you move me.
You’re the color of the color part of The Wizard of Oz movie.

We're like Romeo and Juliet,
We're like 40 dogs, cigarettes,
We're like good times that haven’t happened yet but will.
And I can tell you where we're gonna be
When the whole world falls to the sea:
We’ll be livin’ ever after, happily.

All the boys taking you for granted,
Tell you what they want with their eyes all slanted.
I don’t like the way they look at you,
I don’t like the way they talk to,
I don’t like the way they talk to you.
I wouldn’t let 'em talk to you like that.

Put 'em up high, reach for the ceiling.
Tell them that I'ma walk, damn it, I'm real,
And it ain't no crime, it's just dreams we’re stealing -
Anything to get more of this feeling

You take the high and I'll take the low,
We'll get there before you know.
We ain't got no time to waste,
We got too much light to taste.

We're like Romeo and Juliet,
And 40 dogs, cigarettes,
We're like good times that haven’t happened yet but will.
And I can tell you where we're gonna be
When the whole world falls to the sea:
We’ll be livin’ ever after, happily.

Sometimes you remind me of a moonbeam,
On the ghost of a moonbeam out on the beach,
Down by the coast, slip into Manila,
Like the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

Come out tonight, come out with me, baby.
We'll throw the careful into the crazy,
Turn the sky black into a sky blue,
Turn the color shade into a hoo-hoo.
What I say is true, make a fire, gotta burn a few,
Make a fire, gotta burn a few,
We can do what we want to do.

We're like Romeo and Juliet, 40 dogs, cigarettes,
We're like good times that haven’t happened yet but will.
I can tell you where we're gonna be
When the whole world falls to the sea:
We’ll be livin’ ever after, happily.

who knew

2009-11-15T20:54:00.000-08:00

who knew i would ever like someone like you.
no that wasnt racist.
lol CALM DOWN.

and that's how it goes.

winter

2009-11-10T13:49:00.000-08:00

astronomy
english 101
newspaper &
piano

sounds delish!

i like

2009-11-02T19:24:00.000-08:00

living with no regrets.

finally

2009-10-20T15:19:00.001-07:00

my dad told me last week he didn't know what he would do without me.
and today he told me he's so happy when i'm around.
everything i've asked for in the past year has come true. he's better. and i know he loved me when he wasn't. but to know how much he loves and needs me now, is the happiest i've felt in years.

you know what's bitchin?

2009-10-19T16:22:00.001-07:00

divine order.

ya well

2009-10-15T13:51:00.001-07:00

i'll bring it up.. eventually.

i wish

2009-10-11T21:10:00.001-07:00

i had my own place.
and could stay out as late as i wanted.
and return in any condition i wanted hah.

i looove

2009-10-04T20:30:00.001-07:00

catching up with people i haven't talked to in forever.
cause i just freakin' love humans.
<3

Mead Band

2009-10-02T20:46:00.000-07:00

I never thought I would miss you.
I was sooo tired of band and the immaturity and ready to get out of high school. I didn't enjoy you to my full potential. But I guess that made it easier to say goodbye. But I'm making up for it now. Seeing Mead play and seeing all the kids and the great atmosphere there, ugggh that was just an amazing time in my life. I truly appreciate now. And it's not too late to do that.

sometimes

2009-10-01T18:37:00.000-07:00

i wish i found that guy.

but then i think...
you are way too busy. and you are way to happy.
i like that thought.

100 posts.

2009-09-30T22:08:00.000-07:00

wow i've come a long way,
and not far at all.
from who i used to be and who i am.
still the same, yet so very changed.

oh, and i miss dianne. and i don't think she even cares :(

attitude change

2009-09-27T21:42:00.001-07:00

and it's for the better.
and life is bitchin'

social networking

2009-09-26T16:33:00.001-07:00

linkedin.com/in/lindseytreffry
twitter.com/_LindseyTreffry (professional only)
twitter.com/LindseyTreffry (friends only)

if i have a good attitude

2009-09-21T15:32:00.001-07:00

through all of college
it should be amazing

i better get workin' on that...

I feel like...

2009-09-19T00:58:00.000-07:00

all that i've been doing is bargaining and pleading with god.
and praying, and hoping.
my daddy is my whole life now.
my dad is the reason why i have such a big heart to love and be so strongly hurt.
please god.

Blessed

2009-09-15T09:26:00.000-07:00

I have the best friends and best family I could ever ask for. They are always there for me, and if not I know they all love me with all my heart. Newberg and the Oregon coast made me really think about and appreciate how great my friends are, and made me realize how much I can miss other friends and family while I'm away. My life could never end horrible if I have all the people I love in my life. I should never feel alone.

JON!

2009-09-08T22:37:00.000-07:00

OREGONOREGONOREGONOREGON
shellyshellyshellyshelly
LONGBEACHLONGBEACHLONGBEACH
oregonoregonoregon
SHELLYSHELLYSHELLY
longbeachlongbeachlongbeachlongbeach

:0 !!! OMGOLLY

gary treffry

2009-09-06T22:13:00.000-07:00

my dad's surgery is next week.
i will have no doubts, and i will have nothing but faith.
hope. no anxiety.
everything is going to be better.
my heart is going to stop aching.

thank you god.
thank you god.
thank you god.
amen.

ready

2009-08-28T16:05:00.000-07:00

i'm so ready for the next step.
job, college, even homework (that idea wont last long).
i like this handle on life. i'm not quite sure which way to steer it (i don't know about my major as much anymore. i have so many options, i just don't know where to start and where it's gonna end. i want to be happy when i'm 40, and i'm sure my occupation is going to have a lot to do with that). seeing every go off to college, especially shell, makes me see how old we've gotten. it's pretty exciting, and i'm ready for it betchesss!

it feels nice

2009-08-26T12:39:00.000-07:00

so i'm hired for shadle!.. after i finish the background check, investigation, etc.

and i get paid for working at the garage sale this week.

and then i will have a job on the 5th from CMS, and hopefully continue that as a part time job.

and next week my dad goes in for a meeting with the surgeon to talk about his NPH surgery :)

and hopefully in the next two weeks i'll finish the math tests at sfcc.

and then i go with jon to oregon and see shelly.

and school starts soon!

and then i sigh and think about how nicely everything is going and how super excited i am for everything that is coming up :) YAY!

awesome

2009-08-19T23:39:00.000-07:00

being left out of a y.o.u group that i have loved so much for over six months is like a freaking high school click all over again. it's really unfair and immature. i honestly don't understand it.

i love

2009-08-19T00:45:00.000-07:00

ROB PAULSON <3

18 years

2009-08-08T21:39:00.001-07:00

so it wasn't a very eventful day.
but i had 17 birthday shout-outs on facebook and myspace.. and still counting. i think it's better to feel loved than entertained right??

yay for 18 years of life! wooo!

if

2009-08-04T23:30:00.000-07:00

if i could blame it on the anemia

my sigh of relief would create a wind storm.
please?

i want

2009-07-30T18:55:00.000-07:00

a job.
and a fun filled end of my summer.
at least i have the last one :)

i want

2009-07-27T23:35:00.001-07:00

a guy like ed to find me.
ready go!

anyone out there?

2009-07-26T20:29:00.000-07:00

i'm gone for four days... no missed calls. no voicemails. one text in reply to one i sent right before i turned my phone off four days ago. no messages/comments/etc on facebook or myspace. am i the only one trying to spread the love out there? i mean shit! i just want to be held and rocked to sleep right now. i need some chill pills.

Canada

2009-07-22T12:31:00.001-07:00

I can't wait to see my family.
I feel so open and happy with them. Rafting is some of the best times in my ENTIRE YEAR.
And baby Sam makes my life. I'm never sad or upset when he's around. He gives me hope for the future. His and mine.

I can't wait to SCREEEEEAM on the scary rapids :)) Whhheee.

Study Abroad

2009-07-20T18:57:00.001-07:00

I am going to study abroad in college. It's going to happen.
Sadly, the falls only offers Spain, Britain, Japan, and Australia. But that is according to the faulty, horribly made website.

At Central they have tons and tons of different programs, but none are quarter long (only semester or year) except for the faculty lead ones. Ecck.
But there is a faculty lead trip to Spain for fifteen days for specifically communication/journalist majors, which would be perfect.

But most of all I want to go to France. I just have to go. Italy too, but I feel like thats for my mom and I. I just have to go to France. With three years of it under my belt and possibly another year in college, it'd be way easier for me to pick up than any other language. Plus, its my dream to go there. To go to Nice and Paris would make my life.

That's one thing I'm looking forward to when school starts... being able to talk to my counselors about studying abroad, because all the offices are closed in the summer. It's such an exciting thought to be out on my own with no one I know in one of the most beautiful countries on earth. Uggh I'm just drooling thinking about it.

:)

2009-07-19T21:18:00.000-07:00

My daddy told me he was happy today.
That made my week.

my least favorite letter of the alphabet

2009-07-15T23:44:00.000-07:00

i'm still hurt.
i didn't know i could have such strong feelings for someone i'm not dating.

you're perfect! with only one flaw -- her.

Hey

2009-07-12T19:51:00.000-07:00

I want to love everyone.
Alot.
I'm gonna work on that :)

DAMN

2009-07-11T22:28:00.000-07:00

i should've asked sooner.
then i wouldn't have been lead on so much.

fukk. and now im shaking. in the bad way.

Shucks

2009-07-11T21:15:00.000-07:00

No one can go rafting :((
First year alone. This sucks. Balls.

Oh well, I have an eventful two months ahead of me, no need to be upset :p

Yes

2009-07-03T00:37:00.000-07:00

I'm starting to get the spark of energy and life back.
I'm gonna trap it and keep it with me haha.

This week's horoscope

2009-06-29T23:28:00.001-07:00

"Getting in touch with people will make you happy today. The moon will be in peaceful Libra, and the way you approach people will instantly make them want to get together with you. This will be especially helpful if you're trying to get some work, or if you're trying to make some new friends at your pool, community center, or park."

I like the sound of that :))

I found out why...

2009-06-28T19:55:00.000-07:00

I've been so bipolar.

...I feel like I need someone to need me.
It's not like I don't feel needed or loved by friends, but I want someone to need me. For them to want help from me.

And that's weird, because I already have that in plentiful forms in my life. I'm crucial to my dad's daily needs. So why do I feel this way?

I've been putting myself out there for all my friends. I wish I was giving my full potential right now. I've been like this for a whole month (which is the entirety of my summer so far). Just some weird funk, and I'm confused as to why it's happening. I'm completely happy when I'm out with friends and talking to people, but any moment I'm alone (and admittedly some moments with friends) I just feel so down, and unhappy.

I have been trying to stop myself from feeling that way, but it comes and goes in waves, unstoppable. But I'm trying to control my emotions and I'm not giving up. I love all my friends and I know they all love me. Humanity is pretty crazy and I want to experience it at it's full potential and test my limits with others.

Please give me something to look forward to.

Sometimes

2009-06-23T12:03:00.000-07:00

I feel really pathetic.

I just wish I knew.

Today, I need to do something with myself. Job applications! I NEED A JOB. Woo here I go.

If It Kills Me

2009-06-22T19:03:00.000-07:00

Jason Mraz expressing my feelings...
"Hello, tell me you know
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now

And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing

Cause you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours, on and
We get along much better
Than you and your boyfriend

[Chorus]Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous

If I get caught I could be risking it all
Baby there's a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong

[Chorus]

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said I wouldI guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

[Chorus]
If it kills me
I think it might kill me
And all I really want from you is to feel me
It's a feeling inside that keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
It might kill me"

Exactly how I feel. At an unbelievable amount. I'm shaking thinking about it. Ridiculous.

Teehee

2009-06-15T21:53:00.000-07:00

I think you're pretty awesome too.

Actually I think you're really awesome.
And you're really cute.
And I might like you.

HAH!

It'll Be Ok (Shelly Response)

2009-06-14T20:31:00.000-07:00

I realized something.
We're not only friends because we get along great.
We were put together because of fate.

It is unfathomable - the fact that we are going through the same thing.
It's a bit of stretch to say it's exactly the same thing, but...
We have always been Daddy's Little Girl.
We're scared shitless about the future.
We've seen the strongest, most important man in our life become weak.
And most importantly, we're strong.

We were put together for a reason. Not only for all these great memories we've kept and the great bond we have, but so we can get each other through probably THE TOUGHEST thing we've both ever had to deal with.

And I want to tell you, you have the best family. You have two amazing brothers and a strong, loving mom. You couldn't ask for more. Just thank god that you've had the time with your dad, and that you caught this so early in the game.

I am ALWAYS here for you. 24/7. At college, at home, over the phone, over IM, heck over this blog as you can see (yes lame to tell you this important stuff over a blog, but I could get more out without blubbering and crying telling you this). Whether it's about your dad or it's about some shirt you just bought, I am here to listen and laugh and cry and talk to you.

I love you forever,
Lindsey

After Graduation Parties

2009-06-14T20:29:00.001-07:00

I am so blessed.
I have the best friends I could ask for.
I have the best family ever.
Everyone in my life has forever shaped and changed me and I'm so glad.
This summer is going to be the best, and has been so far.

Welcoming Summer

2009-06-09T22:02:00.001-07:00

Summer--
Hello there.
It's been a while.
I LOVE YOU!
--Lindsey

:O !!!

2009-06-03T14:21:00.000-07:00

High school
NEVER AGAIN!

Ohmygosh. Seriously?! I can't believe it?!
When will it hit me?

I love humanity today. People are just great.
I will try to never forget any of these people. And I'll love them forever!

Wait what?!

2009-06-02T15:38:00.001-07:00

..So you say I'm never gonna see some of these people EVER AGAIN?

Friday the 29th

2009-05-29T17:18:00.000-07:00

Yearbook
Senior Issue of the Panther Post
85 degree weather
Book Slips
Bermudas

It's blowing my mind how close I am to something so scary. Graduation then Summer then College. How did it happen so fast? What happened to Barney and Sesame Street and tickle fights with my Daddy and being under 3 feet??
Dis shit is crazy.

Graduation

2009-05-28T21:25:00.001-07:00

Well if I've made it this far...

Goood weekend

2009-05-25T21:23:00.000-07:00

I am so glad I got to spend time with all my friends this weekend.

I can't believe there is only seven days of high school left-- ever!!
I love all my friends with all my heart :))
(Shelly this means you -- and we need to hang out and talk about life and college and everything-- it's been a while).

Cool beans!

Hey God

2009-05-20T19:38:00.001-07:00

You sure like to test my limits don't you?

I'm scared.

12 school days

2009-05-15T16:28:00.000-07:00

that's an unbelievable number. i can't believe i'm still taking the days for granted. i'll stop that now. after the AP essay, easy sailing.

super good mood

2009-05-14T16:22:00.001-07:00

i want a dance party right now.

lol
broadway night tonight.
graduation comin' up, and i'm enjoying the days.
tomorrow is friday.

mother's day

2009-05-10T17:31:00.001-07:00

cute love note from bruce to my mother:
'you aren't my mother
you aren't my wife
but you certainly are the light of my life.'

cute, huh?

hanson

2009-05-10T16:10:00.000-07:00

'Isn't it weird? Isn't it strange?
Whoa, sitting on the side, waiting for a sign, hoping that my luck will change.
Reaching for a hand that'll understand, someone who feels the same.
When you live in a cookie cutter world, being different is a sin.
So you don't stand out, but you don't fit in.'

life

2009-05-08T15:34:00.000-07:00

things go well, and then things suck, and then they go well, and then they suck again. i think it's my attitude that needs to change, not my life. definitely.

Rally

2009-04-30T16:05:00.000-07:00

was life changing as always. I have been high off of life since then. And even with swine flu like symptoms, I am content to the max.

I hope my friends know how much I appriciate and love them. I couldn't imagine my life without any of them -- old or new. Annnnd...
I CAN'T WAIT FOR PROM.

Seriously?

2009-04-15T18:04:00.000-07:00

You're such an asshole to me.
Eff you, I don't even have the time to care.

I'm so happy =]

CBC

2009-04-12T17:55:00.001-07:00

I love the sun. I love my friends. I can't wait to graduate.

SUMMERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

Positive Thoughts:

2009-04-05T22:10:00.000-07:00

It can be a matter of life or death.

Thank god

2009-03-26T16:10:00.000-07:00

I have Dresden Dolls music to pound my anger out on the piano.

And thank god she said she was still proud of me.
Today=shitty. TGTIF. Spring break, I think I'm in love.

cute

2009-03-24T15:39:00.001-07:00

You be my Nick, I'll be your Norah.

I don't care if I have to wait around. I'm content.

Hey you one kid--

2009-03-18T15:06:00.000-07:00

stop confusing me.

Thanks.

Girl Advice: From vlogbrothers

2009-03-16T16:42:00.001-07:00

Here's a youtube video vlogbrothers quote:

How do I get nerd girls to like me?

Idk, thats not really my area of expertise, hold on, lemme go and get Willy (brings in dog).Girls love you Willy, how do you do it? Kisses? You lick their ears? I don't think that's it.. atleast not at first.

Why do girls like you? Is it because you pee alot or you bark in the house? Or because you make alot of weird noises? Wait is it because you're the silent, shy, aloof type? The silent, shy, aloof type doesn't lick me on the mouth when I'm video blogging.

So I can tell you pretty distinctly why girls like Willy. Because he's a puppy. My first piece of advice for getting girls to like you is become a puppy. A kitten would also be acceptable or possibly a sneezy panda bear.

I've been dumped by a lot of girls. And in the process of acquiring those broken hearts I learned one important lesson: Girls don't like it when you get all creepy stalker-y on them.
See the problem with guys is we're needy but we're told that we're not allowed to be needy, so when we get in a situation when we're allowed to be vulnerable we sorta like rip it open and let it flow out and its kinda disgusting.

I have this theory with girls, atleast girls not named Bella, they have this warning system inside their heads and whenever we get too obsessed with them and focused on them it's like BEEP BEEP BEEP Back Away which btw is a totally helpful warning system because no girl- or any other person for that matter- will ever fill up the holes inside of you.

It's like chinese finger cuffs. Do you remember cfc? The way to get cfc off of your fingers is instead of being panicked and overeager, just relax.

Oh and one other thing guys, it would be really helpful if you can see girls as like people instead of pathways to kissing and/or salvation.

One thing I've noticed over the years is if you treat girls like people, although admittadely people who like fart jokes somewhat less than the rest of your friends, they're much more likely to like you.

Bahah

2009-03-11T15:27:00.000-07:00

Good day.

I like that butterfly feeling I keep getting. And hate it at the same time.

...

2009-03-09T20:02:00.001-07:00

YOU'RE SO HARD TO READ. lmao. NOT even FUNNY!

..

2009-03-09T15:24:00.001-07:00

I thought it was funny how on the left under March it said I liked, and then Hookah? lol.

I'm not used to this whole flirting thing. I don't want to be obvious or annoying, but I want to be noticed. It's a hard balance :\

I liked

2009-03-08T20:17:00.000-07:00

this weekend. And that one attractive person. Ya know? Indeed.

Hookah?

2009-03-02T21:10:00.001-08:00

I don't get it at all.
Grow up.

Emotionally Drained

2009-02-23T16:39:00.001-08:00

My mind is filled with so many thoughts. It's bearing down on me and taking a toll. I want to fix everything that is broken right now, but I have no idea how!

I leave

2009-02-10T16:40:00.000-08:00

tomorrow for Disney.

And for those who noticed I linked by blog to facebook. So if you want my REAL blog to see all the posts go to savingmygeneration.blogspot.com... it's better.

I'm trying to figure out the camera for digital media and it's fricking me over. The lighting is bad. I have the ISO up pretty high and it is being cranky and making lots of things dark. Cause I wanna do a fast motion in like reg-dark lighting and i turn the shutter speed up for fast motion and then idk to do with the aperture then. And it is a F4 not F2 for the lowest? WTF? Nobody even knows what I'm talking about but there ya go. I'm angry at it. I wish I could throw it. Lol.