all that i've been doing is bargaining and pleading with god. and praying, and hoping. my daddy is my whole life now. my dad is the reason why i have such a big heart to love and be so strongly hurt. please god.
I have the best friends and best family I could ever ask for. They are always there for me, and if not I know they all love me with all my heart. Newberg and the Oregon coast made me really think about and appreciate how great my friends are, and made me realize how much I can miss other friends and family while I'm away. My life could never end horrible if I have all the people I love in my life. I should never feel alone.
my dad's surgery is next week. i will have no doubts, and i will have nothing but faith. hope. no anxiety. everything is going to be better. my heart is going to stop aching.
thank you god. thank you god. thank you god. amen.