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i'm restless, and i'm in love.

HAH

Its all gotta happen at once, doesn't it?
Always.

ASLKFJSDOV*&$U#OKLFSDLKFNLSDKF#I$HEJKRnf!!

stuff

the more i get older, i realize there are less people that really 'get me'.

i'm past the awkward stages of my life, i have myself all figured out (for the most part), and now some people don't take me as who I AM.

thank god for the few in my life that do. i really understand what love is when i have the friends, family, and boyfriend who have stuck around through all the different stages of ME.

adult life

i feel like i'm really growing up.
and doing some of the most challenging things i've ever done.

i want to go to neverland.
and sometimes i think wendy should have stayed with peter.

QUICK

what am i always rushing to?
what am i doing when i think the future is going to be better? there is no future! not for sure anyways.

who knows

hello feeling,



it's been a while.
i think i remember you.

you hurt a lot once.


but not this time.

love, the insignificant late-night thoughts of lindsey.

home

my dad told me and my brother he wished he could have spent more time taking care of us, before we had to take care of him.

that's all i've wanted.
i don't think i'll ask for anything ever again.

ya

People who have only good experiences aren’t very interesting. They may be content, and happy after a fashion, but they aren’t very deep. It may seem a misfortune now, and it makes things difficult, but well—it’s easy to feel all the happy, simple stuff. Not that happiness is necessarily simple. But I don’t think you’re going to have a life like that, and I think you’ll be the better for it. The difficult thing is to not be overwhelmed by the bad patches. You must not let them defeat you. You must see them as a gift—a cruel gift, but a gift nonetheless.

...

i looove it in phoenix. i am having an amazing time. but since that conversation (as of what an hour ago??)...

i wish i could come talk to you for like 2-3 hours. and have you fix everything i've been hating and regretting since... him. and get it off my chest.

guess i'll wait til i see you then.

i like

why, thank you

i wont let you down.

hah thank the lord!!

REALLY

i really, really, really, really, really want this. PLEASE.

just sometimes

i have been so unbelievably happy in the past few weeks. happier than i've been since summer. bouncing off the walls happy. but some mornings i wake up and i get... that feeling again. that dread. and victimization. and severe sadness. and the only thing i want is to either shove all thoughts of my father out of my head or go see him, curl up in his arms, and cry.

i try so hard not to take anything for granted and i know i'm blessed. but some days i just need to... not. i need to not be happy. i need to just stop hiding those thoughts that are always jumping around in my head. i need to find a balance where i can not ignore what's going on with my dad, accept it, and still be happy with the idea of it. that's a huge challenge. but i can try.

my horoscope said...
"The energy around you may be slowing down a bit, and that's okay!" and i do think it's alright. i can't be happy 24/7 in my life. i need a balance. a way to feel, and not shut things out, and let things in.

and on a lighter note, it also said... "Friends can turn into more-than-friends, and encounters can turn hot on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Go on, look and feel terrific -- and be terrifically appealing, whether you're single or coupled up." i like this idea :))

stuck in my head

...and for good reasons.

Hey, hey

Your lipstick stains on the front lobe of my left side brains
I knew I wouldn't forget you, and so I went and let you blow my mind
Your sweet moonbeam, the smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided, you're the one I have decided who's one of my kind

Hey soul sister, ain't the Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight
Hey, hey

Just in time, I'm so glad you have a one-track mind like me
You gave my life direction, a game show love connection we can't deny
I'm so obsessed, my heart is bound to beat right out my untrimmed chest
I believe in you, like a virgin, you're Madonna, and I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight

The way you can't cut a rug, watching you's the only drug I need
You're so gangsta, I'm so thug, you're the only one I'm dreaming of
You see, I can be myself now finally, in fact there's nothing I can't be
I want the world to see you be with me

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do tonight,
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight
Hey, hey

Tonight
Hey, hey

Tonight

madison!!

so every freaking time i put something on here... its going to notify you? so i can't talk about you behind your back!?

...shelly this is a dilemma!

InDesign

oh how i missed thee.

shhh

it's a secret
teehee

oh wait

other people feel pain too?
like your best friends?

and someone you've known for years but have never talked to?
WEIRD lindsey.